again he writes...

just the thought of reading what she has written makes me unstable. this is a woman i've last seen some years ago but have know since at least, at the very least, 20 years ago. out of nowhere feeling started to burn inside me. i covered them with an illusion to cover this illusion. yes, i fell in love with her, but who is she..? we speak about life and a everything, but she is still a stranger to me yet a good friend. how can you explain this..?! can't really... who can explain feelings? i am aware of them, i can even, controversially, understand and with few hard words explain them, yet... why can i not express them well enough?

anyhow... there is this woman, somewhere in the world, with whom i have fallen in love with. but because we live in such different realities, i tell myself not to expect anything. she might even have feeling as well but we'll never know, for she is there and i am here... a few thousand kilometres away from each other. how wrong is it of me to fancy other women then?! exactly this question makes me wonder more than i already do.....................